Have you ever heard the quotes about going within yourself to find the real you?
The real opportunity for success lies within the person and not in the job. -Zig Ziglar
I look within to find my treasures. -Louise Hay
Peace begins from within, if you are not peaceful inside, the world you see will be chaotic. -unknown
These confused the hell out of me for forever. I just did not understand how anything was going to come from within. What do I do? How do I do it? What does from within even mean? Do I just meditate and figure shit out suddenly? I did start a meditation practice, but that’s not what brought on the AH HA! moment.
The problem was I was looking externally for everything. Ideas for my career path were given to me from my family. How I dressed and looked depended on who I was dating and what he liked. I looked for happiness through shopping or sex or other people. But none of that got me anywhere. I still felt empty.
DIVing in
It wasn’t until recently that I really started diving in…you know, within? I noticed the patterns and I started digging deep. What am I repeating or trying to accomplish in these relationships? What are the common denominators here?
I started figuring things out and making connections.
Finding the root to my core wounds by going INTO my past, INTO my memories, INTO the heart of the trauma.
I was realizing these stories I’ve told about myself to myself and others became reality. (You are what you think) And until I stopped telling them they would continue to repeat again and again.
I had no self esteem, lacked boundaries, and deeply hurt from wounds that happened long ago. The wounds had been ripped open multiple times, trying to be seen, crying out to not be torn wide once more. But I didn’t listen. I numbed the wounds with my addictions, doing anything to not feel pain. They scarred over waiting to be unearthed once more, and they would continue to do so until i did the work. The INNER work.
The last time they were torn open so deep, I couldn’t ignore them anymore.
I went IN completely.
I rewrote my stories with how I deserve to be treated and my confidence started blossoming.
I realized it doesn’t matter what others think. If I’m not doing it for me, then I won’t be happy. I would not be authentic. And if I’m doing it for them, well that wont make them happy either because I can not MAKE someone else feel something. We are all responsible for our own feelings.
looking within
I started looking WITHIN for everything i did. Only I know what my heart and soul truly desire. No one else can decide that for me. I lean in the direction that feels good INSIDE me. I follow these feelings and everything starts falling together like it was meant to be. It all starts to make sense. I am truly happy. Because when I choose what feels good and what I desire it makes me happy which then attracts more happiness.
Going WITHIN me, the deep dark WITHIN me at first has turned the light on from WITHIN.
When we stop looking externally to be satisfied and do everything from our heart WITHIN it is done with love. We become love and we attract more love and we are full of love.
It was when I stopped searching for home within others and lifted the foundations of home within myself I found there were no roots more intimate than those between a mind and body that have decided to be whole. -rupi kaur
